Wednesday, March 14, 2007
~ Transfer Out? ~
12:21:00 am
Time and again, I kept telling myself to request for a transfer out from the ward... But at the end of the day, I just couldn't get myself to do it...
Despite all the 'crazy' colleagues and heavy workload that I have, I still get the satisfaction from what I like most doing... That is, the result of taking care of my elderly patients in the ward... Well, of course, there's the really demanding relatives sometimes... But I guess, that wouldn't deter me as well...
An incident today really made me think twice about wanting to make a move... There's this old
apek who would never wash his hands each time he goes to the toilet... No matter what we show or gesture (language barrier makes us harder to communicate), he would say no... And the worse part is when he touches my hand or arm for assistance in walking... Well, I know that you would go, "Ewwwwwww".... Well, I did too! *Haha*... I had to wash my hands and arms after each toilet visit with this
apek...
But that's not the issue here... I feel a little satisfaction from this little things that I get to do for my patients, such as walking him to the toilet... The thing is, would I still be as happy if I were to go to another ward? Would I still feel satisfied?
And this is why I have been thinking twice in making a move... Since ages ago, I kept telling some of my colleagues that I wanted to transfer out... But till today, I still have not requested it yet... Cuz I am still quite reluctant to move...
Some of my colleagues have been very supportive though... Each time when I feel like slacking, they would tell me to buck up... Not in a way to scold me or anything... But it was to support me... They kept telling me that it's the end product that matters, the thing that is going to make me proud, and that is why I have to suffer now...
I admit that it's a very stressful period but I keep telling myself that I can do it, no matter where I am or where I'll be... No matter how bad it is, cuz what matters in the end, is the results...
P.S. Thanks for the date yesterday, dear... It's been a long, long time since we last had time for a date... I guess, it'll be sometime later before we'll get to spend time with each other again... *Sigh*
written, NaDiaH eRNiYaNTi
